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He likes me; I hate him...
I like him; He hates me...
Maybe she's crazy or maybe a tomboy...
Maybe he's gay or a woman hater...
Thursday, March 6, 1997
Monday, February 24, 1997
February Updates (Part 2)
Feb. 8 - Feb. 24, 1997 Sat. - Monday
Now, let's see what had happened in the past few days...
My classmates were very funny... especially Mike. A bunch of comedians...
My disminoria strikes when I'm in school; I went home early...
Blue is on the Philippines, now! Last time, I talked to him was Feb. 12...
Went to Limbang...
Talked to G. & O. over the phone...
Mom had a b-day --- I ate a lot!
Auntie R.'s son had a b-day --- I ate a lot!
I guess dazoll!!!
J.xox.
Ooops!!!
Friday, February 7, 1997
February Updates
Feb. 1 - 2 '97 Sat. - Sun.
Goes to work as usual!
Feb. 3 - 4 '97 Mon. - Tues.
= First day of School! Orientation.
Met my instructors & classmates..
=Last day of work. Shop had been closed.
Start of our "hands-on" class.
Saw Blue for awhile. Beth's still not in work...
Feb. 5 - 6 '97 Wed. - Thurs.
= Blue called to me. I went to his house for medicine, bec. lola's sick. He called me again when I got home. Very thoughtful!!!
= went to school, of course...
Feb. 7, '97 Friday
HOLIDAY! Chinese New Year! Selamat Hari Raya!!!
*Beth called. She's back to work....
.xox.
Goes to work as usual!
Feb. 3 - 4 '97 Mon. - Tues.
= First day of School! Orientation.
Met my instructors & classmates..
=Last day of work. Shop had been closed.
Start of our "hands-on" class.
Saw Blue for awhile. Beth's still not in work...
Feb. 5 - 6 '97 Wed. - Thurs.
= Blue called to me. I went to his house for medicine, bec. lola's sick. He called me again when I got home. Very thoughtful!!!
= went to school, of course...
Feb. 7, '97 Friday
HOLIDAY! Chinese New Year! Selamat Hari Raya!!!
*Beth called. She's back to work....
.xox.
Wednesday, February 5, 1997
My Friend Blue
Blue called to me yesterday night... then he called to me this morning, too. My grandma had a headache, or slight fever, but we don't have medicine. So I go over to Blue's house & asked for a medicine. My mother actually told me to go there to ask for medicine. He's so cute. White T-shirt & a short. Then, when I got the medicine & got home, he called to me again. All concern! How sweet & thoughtful...
Tuesday, February 4, 1997
New Classmates
I have at least 3 classmates, they are:
Mike, Jeff & Aziz
Sorry to say I don't have friends...
Mike, Jeff & Aziz
Sorry to say I don't have friends...
Saturday, February 1, 1997
Unforgettable Experience
By the age of 17; when I started to rebel. I didn't know what's the cause of my rebelling then, I just know I fell deeply in love for the first time and it affects all what I have... especially my behavior.
I was once a shy; timid; loner and what we called quite straight girl... but all that vanished when I turned 17, just what I've said before.
I fell in love with B. He's 22 years old then --- five years older than me. He knows ev'rything in love-life relationship, but me --- well, I'm still innocent then.
So, he teaches me ev'rything --- taught me ev'rything I have to know.
He taught me how to love; to give; to share; and to obey... HIM! He taught me how to lie; to hate; to hurt, and betrayed... MYSELF!
He opened up realities & wild life to me. He brought me to a world I should never... known. He taught me to make friends --- wrong set of friends; HIS FRIENDS!
And these friends of him taught me: confusion & wild things, like: smoke, liquors, and other stuff. It was exciting, at the same time, it's REVOLTING & DISGUSTING!
My b.f. said to me that he would marry me someday & that he loves me very, very much... and that two things, are the magic words! MARRY and LOVE!
Hmp! How I fooled myself!!!
Fortunately, my so-called friends had conscience enough, to not introduced me to drugs.
So, I haven't tried drugs... and don't want to.
So, let's see:
I abandoned my studies...
I always go out with my friends; oh, y'know GIMMICKS!!!
I smoked; I drink...
I become a total... MESS UP!
My boyfriend's in the band. He's a drummer and vocalist. He has another girlfriend (which I only found out later). Him & his friends AND me & my friends (cousins & other girl-friends) are the Masters & Mistresses of TIME SUCKAGE!!!... GENERATION-X'ers!!! THE LOST SOULS!!! Whatever you want to call us...
To make the story short:
That was year 1995 - early 1996!!!
Now, 1997...
We (some of us) changed for the best. Back to our own selves again, but not as whole & straight as before.
What happened?
Some of my friends --- married...
others got pregnant...
my cousin - married & have a daughter now. married to her b.f. (friend of ours & lead guitarist of the band)
my step-aunt (1 month & 1 week older than me) - had a daughter now, but no husband; result of having many boyfriends at the same time...
me - work as a saleslady in Bowling Center. continue studying. Computer Studies.
B. - got married to his other girlfriend and have a son now.
my other cousin - still messing up her life.
... other friends --- still fuckin' up & messing up their lives.
That's all for now!
Keep you posted... .xox.
I was once a shy; timid; loner and what we called quite straight girl... but all that vanished when I turned 17, just what I've said before.
I fell in love with B. He's 22 years old then --- five years older than me. He knows ev'rything in love-life relationship, but me --- well, I'm still innocent then.
So, he teaches me ev'rything --- taught me ev'rything I have to know.
He taught me how to love; to give; to share; and to obey... HIM! He taught me how to lie; to hate; to hurt, and betrayed... MYSELF!
He opened up realities & wild life to me. He brought me to a world I should never... known. He taught me to make friends --- wrong set of friends; HIS FRIENDS!
And these friends of him taught me: confusion & wild things, like: smoke, liquors, and other stuff. It was exciting, at the same time, it's REVOLTING & DISGUSTING!
My b.f. said to me that he would marry me someday & that he loves me very, very much... and that two things, are the magic words! MARRY and LOVE!
Hmp! How I fooled myself!!!
Fortunately, my so-called friends had conscience enough, to not introduced me to drugs.
So, I haven't tried drugs... and don't want to.
So, let's see:
I abandoned my studies...
I always go out with my friends; oh, y'know GIMMICKS!!!
I smoked; I drink...
I become a total... MESS UP!
My boyfriend's in the band. He's a drummer and vocalist. He has another girlfriend (which I only found out later). Him & his friends AND me & my friends (cousins & other girl-friends) are the Masters & Mistresses of TIME SUCKAGE!!!... GENERATION-X'ers!!! THE LOST SOULS!!! Whatever you want to call us...
To make the story short:
That was year 1995 - early 1996!!!
Now, 1997...
We (some of us) changed for the best. Back to our own selves again, but not as whole & straight as before.
What happened?
Some of my friends --- married...
others got pregnant...
my cousin - married & have a daughter now. married to her b.f. (friend of ours & lead guitarist of the band)
my step-aunt (1 month & 1 week older than me) - had a daughter now, but no husband; result of having many boyfriends at the same time...
me - work as a saleslady in Bowling Center. continue studying. Computer Studies.
B. - got married to his other girlfriend and have a son now.
my other cousin - still messing up her life.
... other friends --- still fuckin' up & messing up their lives.
That's all for now!
Keep you posted... .xox.
Friday, January 31, 1997
Jan. 30 - 31 (Thurs. - Fri.)
Beth has sore-eyes!
I played Bowling. Lowest score: 58
Highest score: 140
Saw my boss. The usual.
*Went to Informatics Focus Computer.
Paid the enrollment fee.
Still need money for the 10%
in enrollment fee...
"And if you ever fall in love again
now baby, you must be sure that
the lady is a friend...
And if you ever fall in love
so true, now baby, you must be
sure that she feels the same w/ you.."
.xox.~.xox.
I played Bowling. Lowest score: 58
Highest score: 140
Saw my boss. The usual.
*Went to Informatics Focus Computer.
Paid the enrollment fee.
Still need money for the 10%
in enrollment fee...
"And if you ever fall in love again
now baby, you must be sure that
the lady is a friend...
And if you ever fall in love
so true, now baby, you must be
sure that she feels the same w/ you.."
.xox.~.xox.
Wednesday, January 29, 1997
Prayers
*Prayer to God: when grateful; sinned; scared...
Dear God,
... "Thank you for everything..."
... "Forgive me for all my sins..."
... "Just don't let anything that bad happened..."
*Prayer to God: when troubled; confused; weak; tempted...
Dear God,
"I don't think I can carry this burden by myself. Pls. GIVE me STRENGTH to overcome this weakness & A CLEAR MIND to solve my problems..."
*Prayer to God: when happy & content...
Dear God,
"Thank you for making this day a happy one. More than words can say; I'm beyond words..."
*Prayer to God: when hopeless...
Dear God,
THY WILL BE DONE...
*Prayer to God: when irritated; annoyed; angry...
Dear God,
"Pls. help me count 1-10, very slowly.."
*Prayer to God: when beginning to hate someone...
Dear God,
... "Pls. always remind me that hate is worthless; waste of time & energy..."
... "Help me to turn this feelings down... I don't want it (hate)..."
*Prayer to God: when jealous; envy...
Dear God,
... "There's a reason for this feelings, I know. It means... something more good is about to come as soon as I get over with THIS..."
So, pls. help me get over with it quick!
..."I know I'm much better in other ways, so I'll stop this feeling, this instant!"
*Prayer to God: when alone & lonely...
Dear God,
"Please keep me busy!"
*Prayer to God: at night/when in grave danger; and ALL!!!
"Our father, who are in heaven, hollowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven..."
Dear God,
... "Thank you for everything..."
... "Forgive me for all my sins..."
... "Just don't let anything that bad happened..."
*Prayer to God: when troubled; confused; weak; tempted...
Dear God,
"I don't think I can carry this burden by myself. Pls. GIVE me STRENGTH to overcome this weakness & A CLEAR MIND to solve my problems..."
*Prayer to God: when happy & content...
Dear God,
"Thank you for making this day a happy one. More than words can say; I'm beyond words..."
*Prayer to God: when hopeless...
Dear God,
THY WILL BE DONE...
*Prayer to God: when irritated; annoyed; angry...
Dear God,
"Pls. help me count 1-10, very slowly.."
*Prayer to God: when beginning to hate someone...
Dear God,
... "Pls. always remind me that hate is worthless; waste of time & energy..."
... "Help me to turn this feelings down... I don't want it (hate)..."
*Prayer to God: when jealous; envy...
Dear God,
... "There's a reason for this feelings, I know. It means... something more good is about to come as soon as I get over with THIS..."
So, pls. help me get over with it quick!
..."I know I'm much better in other ways, so I'll stop this feeling, this instant!"
*Prayer to God: when alone & lonely...
Dear God,
"Please keep me busy!"
*Prayer to God: at night/when in grave danger; and ALL!!!
"Our father, who are in heaven, hollowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven..."
New Year Resolution
New Year's Resolutions '97:
1. SAVE MONEY!!!
2. Study hard!!!
3. Maintain/Improve Health!!!
4. Don't cut hair!!!
5. Don't worry; Be Happy!! Don't show tears!!!
*Obey!!!... and don't give second thoughts...
.xox.
1. SAVE MONEY!!!
2. Study hard!!!
3. Maintain/Improve Health!!!
4. Don't cut hair!!!
5. Don't worry; Be Happy!! Don't show tears!!!
*Obey!!!... and don't give second thoughts...
.xox.
Tuesday, January 28, 1997
Jan. 25 - Jan. 28 (Sat. - Tues.)
Went back to work again!
Usual people... Played bowling.
Birthday of M. Saw Jayson. Saw Blue.
Blue called to me at phone. (duh!) I think I'm beginning to develop a deep crush in Blue.
Help! I don't want to fall in love, then get hurt again!!!
Usual people... Played bowling.
Birthday of M. Saw Jayson. Saw Blue.
Blue called to me at phone. (duh!) I think I'm beginning to develop a deep crush in Blue.
Help! I don't want to fall in love, then get hurt again!!!
Saturday, January 25, 1997
Friday, January 24, 1997
Salary
Got a call from Uncle L., says my boss fin'lly came in Utama & he gives my salary for the months of Dec. & Jan. to Uncle L.
Tomorrow I'll go to work again...
ONE WEEK DAY-OFF!!! HA!
*Went to Limbang w/ dad, Uncle J. & Auntie R.
Tomorrow I'll go to work again...
ONE WEEK DAY-OFF!!! HA!
*Went to Limbang w/ dad, Uncle J. & Auntie R.
Monday, January 20, 1997
TV Show
X-Files
Ev'ry Sunday
10:00pm
Star Plus
Channel 4
David Duchovny
as Agent Mulder (Fox Mulder)
Gillian Anderson
as Agent Scully (Dana Scully)
.xox.
Ev'ry Sunday
10:00pm
Star Plus
Channel 4
David Duchovny
as Agent Mulder (Fox Mulder)
Gillian Anderson
as Agent Scully (Dana Scully)
.xox.
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